terasa sedih seketika. my feeling + thoughts have been all over. it get congested along the way. I have been giving up to give myself an advice of my own. :( Sya macam taktau nak push diri dah. kenapa tak try harder? why must you put yourself in trouble? why must you slacking off like always? when willl you be serius syaza? when the time comes, maybe? I don't think so. you have been like, ever since... forever, (I think) always in the safe zone. always rely on other people. bila kau nak berdiri atas kaki sendiri? also, Sya pun terasa macam dah give up nak pujuk diri sendiri. pujuk-pujuk pun, bukannya ada progress punn. still duduk kat takuk lama. :( emm. Sya sampai tak dapat nak zahirkan rasa yang sangat dukacita terhadap diri sendiri. bila kau nak sedar syaza? you are away beyond your friends. they have upgraded into higher level. when will you?